GRR, IUD FAIL, WHY!!!!! 2-16-19
Apr 16, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8jp_aUkRAUI

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good morning everybody and welcome to
Tuesday so yesterday as you guys seen in
my vlog yes I had the procedure I had
the Mirena put in and o-m-g that who is
how I can explain the filling so let's
just get a little started here so they
give you a pill in that you're to take
four hours prior to having the procedure
done so I did I took it at 6:45 because
my appointment was not until 10:45
though I thought so I take my pill I do
what I got to do and then prior to you
getting in the procedure you always have
to take a pregnancy test just to make
sure that you're not pregnant or
anything like that so I took the pill I
headed down to the alley took me and
dropped me off at the lavatory to get my
urine test done and as I was checking in
there I was like um I you know she'll
she goes do you need to check in for
another appointment I said well I do
have another appointment at 10:45 and
she goes ok let me check you in so she's
like oh your appointment isn't at 10:45
it's at 10:30
well now mind you it was 10:40 at this
point I'm like oh no I was like I don't
know why I thought it was at 10:45 so I
checked my phone and sure enough I have
it down for 10:30 and I just I guess I
just kept seeing 10:45 even though
really my appointment wasn't in 30 so
they called the doctor and of course the
doctors like no no no no have her come
in you know yeah so my doctor's really
cool and that you know he would
definitely make it all work
so I did my urine test ran down to the
other part of the building and checked
in there for my procedure to be done I
get back into the room and the nurse is
asking me a whole bunch of questions I'm
asking the nurse a whole bunch of
questions still trying to fill this all
out right you know like am i doing the
right thing I'm nervous
everything in between um I take my stuff
off from waist-down sorry I keep itching
my wrist I don't know my wrist is like
itchy and there's like a little bump so
I don't know if I got bit by something
or what anyways um so I undress from the
waist down sitting on the bed here comes
the doctor were chit-chatting talking
whatever and then he's like alright well
we're gonna start the procedure I'm like
oh okay put your feet up on the stirrups
yeah you don't want to hear those key
words of stirrups so he proceeded to do
the procedure and holy crap and that
hurts so bad I am NOT gonna lie I ain't
here to tell you that it tickled I here
to tell you that it minimally hurt no
for me it hurt like it hurt so of course
I probably said every word in the
naughty book and my doctor and I'm like
I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I should be
saying this it he's like this is a safe
place to say those words you're fine I'm
like so then I because I got permission
of course I went haywire on it and I was
buin every word out I think the only
thing I didn't do was cuss him out but I
was close to it and the procedure
altogether took about I'll say about 20
minutes he was having a little bit of
difficulty he had to so once he got you
know put the speculum in it got me
opened up and stuff my cervix was still
not dilated enough with even what I took
with the pill so he had to actually
cause my uterus to dilate more or my
cervix sorry my cervix to dilate more
so I had to sit and wait for my cervix
to open up a little bit more and then he
was able to proceed with the procedure
and he got the Mirena put in and then
cleaned me up and stuff there was a
little bit of bleeding not bad but there
was a little bit of bleeding um which he
said is totally normal it's totally like
there's nothing off about that um and
then after I got you know setting up and
stuff we were talking and he said well
here's the thing he said your cervix is
so tiny Amy like very very tiny he said
I really had a hard time placing that
Mirena like you were a challenge I'm
like of course why not my name is Amy
nothing can come just normal it's always
got to be some type of a challenge right
so I'm like uh-huh and he's like so I'm
50/50 percent that I got it in the right
spot I looked at him and I'm like what
he's like well you know because I had a
really hard time placing it I don't know
if I got it in the right spot normally
they will have you come back to the
doctor's office or they'll send you for
an ultrasound six weeks out to make sure
that the marina's still put you know in
the right place and it's you know doing
its thing for me mm-hmm
no I have to go back in a week and I
have to have an ultrasound done if it's
not in the right spot then he's gonna
have to remove it and he's gonna have to
redo it
but he said that if he redone you know
the second time around he's gonna send
me to the hospital and they will have to
sedate me and do it that way because
he's gonna have to do it with ultrasound
and I'm like why why why why why oh I
can this just not go smooth so I was
like okay you know that's fine so I
scheduled the appointment for the
ultrasound which is next Monday
45 I think I got the right number this
time um so we'll find out if it's in the
right spot
and if it's not I told ollie never mind
then I don't think I'm gonna go forth
with giving him another one pleased if
you know the the cramping subsided by
the time I left the office the cramping
was pretty much gone however my back my
lower part of my back I had a lot of
tension like it hurt pretty bad with my
back um I don't know if that had to do
with my cervix I woke up this morning I
feel fine
like I totally feel a hundred percent
fine I have any pressure don't have
anything I don't have any cramping I
have it blood any at all since I left
the doctor's office so I feel really
good in that aspect but now I'm just
sitting here thinking oh my god if this
isn't in the right spot I'm gonna have
to be reopen to back up have this thing
removed and then make the decision if
I'm gonna go forth with getting another
one put in or if I'm not going to and I
don't know this is all because we're
treating my endometriosis so if I leave
it and I don't follow up with something
then I'm going to be suffering with my
symptoms and you know there's always
that possibility every month that I
could get pregnant but if I and they
they don't want me on the pill because
the pill reacts differently than an IUD
the IUD is just it's right right there
in the location however like the pill or
the shot it has to go through your
bloodstream I guess I don't know I don't
understand all that so now I'm kind of
like I'm sitting out this okay what if
stage you know because I already went
through hell getting it put in which
okay I'd be asleep
next time so I wouldn't fill it but I'm
gonna have to fill all the fillings
afterwards and do this the second time
the marina I got was five years so it's
good for five years that's if I don't
have to have it adjusted or taken out or
we put back in so yeah that's what
happened at my doctor's point me
yesterday I love my doctor to death and
it's not his fault don't get me wrong it
is not my doctor's fault
it has nothing to do with him it's my
body structure it's just you know and
I've been told that before many many
many times with different Obie's and
things like that even when I go for my
annual appointments they have to use
like a teenage spectrum spectrum I am
NOT saying it right rather than an adult
one because I am very small my opening
is very small so it's you know so it's I
know that it's the way my body is put
together but I just don't know if it's
something that I'm gonna want to pursue
and go further in medically to be put to
sleep because then you've got all of
those you know you've got all of those
risk of being put to sleep and you know
I don't do good with anesthesia so I
mean I three hold on Omar's four so four
and a half almost five years ago they
rushed me to ICU after I just went in
for a DNC because when I was coming out
of my anesthesia I don't know what
happened I wasn't there I wasn't awake
but basically my heart started doing
weird funky things and my breathing was
like weird and they couldn't get me to
stop tripping on my breath or something
I don't know I don't fully understand so
it was a scary situation for ollie and
for myself because they had to take him
into a special room and talk to him tell
him that they didn't know what was going
they didn't know they were rushing me up
to ICU and so it's very scary to be put
under and it's just one more you know
the way I look at it's one more knock on
the door if I'm gonna come out of it or
not because my body doesn't handle stuff
like that very well so I'm just really
anticipating like I don't know I don't
know what I want to do but it's just I
keep asking myself like why can't
something just go smooth for me why what
is it that I have to jump through all
these hoops and you know go through all
these different things just to get to
somewhere that is so it's just a routine
thing so everyone on every woman but a
lot of women go it and have it done so
why is it me that I have to do like
triple the amount of work like why is it
by anyways so yeah that's the update
about yesterday so for today's so far I
woke up I'm feeling pretty good I had a
little bit of mild cramping this morning
but I'm okay it's not anything that I
can't handle I haven't started bleeding
still I don't know if I will I don't
know what to expect with my menstrual
cycles some women I've heard don't have
cycles after they get it other women
they say that they have had cycles and
they've had lots of cycles so yeah I
don't know well we're just gonna play
with it and just see what happens and go
from there but I wanted to definitely
get on you guys and just update you let
you know what's going on I want to read
I want to read I want to read we need to
read today because Amy just needs a book
today we're on March 7th if they cost
you your happiness your smile or your
peace they are too expensive you cannot
afford them put them back on the shelf
remove from cart I think that's in the
can open subject like if they cost you
your happiness your smile
or your piece they are too expensive I
mean you could use that in relationships
you can use that as in like daily living
things you know hobby and not hobbies
but um routine things you know but using
it in a family form or a friend form or
an employer form if it's gonna take away
from everything that you have in your
life that is good then why would you
want to keep something in your life so
negative something that would bring in
those dark clouds every single day like
for me I am working so hard at making
sure that my clouds stay blue even like
going through what I'm going through
right now with and it's I could allow it
to really damper me and I could allow it
to really bring me down and bring in
those dark clouds and throw me back into
a depression again I could allow all of
that but I have to stop and really look
at the full picture and say okay stop
stop you know stop poor mean stop making
it all about you know poor Amy and let's
figure this out let's do this let's hold
it okay you know let's rock with it and
keep our happiness keep our sanity keep
our life going because we are going I
have felt so much better the last couple
of days then I have felt in months and
I'm talking emotionally not so much
physically because clearly we're having
some issues but um
you know I think that all in all I think
that we have the control to allow what
is gonna hinder us on what's gonna bring
us up and I can allow like this
situation to take away my happiness to
take away my you know my piece and take
away my sanity and bring in all this
negative negativity or I can say you
know what no I'm gonna put all that on
the Shelf I mean only
alone and I'm gonna take this situation
so you can even put it into situations
it doesn't have to so much be people
because yes people do have have a lot of
control in taking away and and make in
removing so much goodness that you could
bring to yourself but also things can
also do that situations medical
situations you know relationship
situations at all I mean in general
there's a lot of things that can control
that part of your your life but if you
choose as if me at first I flipped into
this hole why me why me why me but then
if I step back and I look at the whole
picture and I say okay hold on I mean
situation I can take this as a you know
what here's a wrench it's thrown in my
path I can step over and continue my
journey or I can trip over it and let it
make me fall and take time to have to
get back up to step over it and I choose
to just step over it I'm we're gonna
have to roll with it there's the you
know I don't know what is gonna take
place I'm praying that the Mirena took
and I'm praying that it's in the right
spot and I'm praying that I don't have
to do anything more with it but if I
have to then it's a growing experience
for me and I will have to face those
decisions when that time comes but I'm
not gonna let it still my joy today for
what is for tomorrow because I can't
control what tomorrow's gonna bring
so yeah I I really think that this
reading is a really good reading because
I I really can put so much of that
reading into my situation right now with
just what's going on medically so I'm
gonna choose to not allow this situation
to throw a wrench to where I'm gonna
trip over it I'm gonna have to step over
it and I'm just gonna have to roll with
the punches and a smile every day and
say you know what I'm alive I'm well and
we can deal with this one day at a time
one minute by minute one second by
second but I've got it and we're gonna
do fine
um also I wanted to say that I have read
everybody's comments thank you so so
very much for all of the input about if
I should get a second channel or what
and you know I I think it's a 50/50 on
everybody saying you know you could you
could do a second channel or why don't
you just you know have all in one
channel but just title your channel you
know like title craft you know so people
know okay this is a crafting video or
whatever it's gonna be I'm still on the
on I'm still on trying to figure tossing
it up trying to figure out reason being
is because if I was to have a crafting
channel there's so much for that channel
like I mean I have so many things that I
I want to do with that channel that I
don't know if it would overpower this
channel and I don't want nothing to be
taken from this channel so that's why
I'm really on the fence about having two
channels is not because it would it
really wouldn't thin me out any more
than what I already am because either
way I'm going to be making a video for
my channel for crafting or my channel
for here but and the editing and stuff
that really is a no that's not really
hard for me um but I'm just really
trying to figure out how I want to do
this I don't feel that I would lose
people on Mike on this channel versus
the other channel I don't feel that I
would lose people because I think that
you know the ones that are you know that
are sub to me and are really there for
me and support I think everybody's gonna
stick around I think that the ones that
are all for crafting I'm this channel
hasn't been all about crafting anyways
so you don't feel if I was to make one
channel be about crafting in this
I'll be just about my journey I don't
think I would technically lose any
subkeys because first and foremost all
of you guys are amazing and you guys are
all awesome and I just believe that you
guys are gonna support whether I'm on
one channel two channels or five
channels which that would never happen
but you know what I'm saying I mean I
just I don't know yeah I'm still on
limbo about it and you know I don't have
to make a decision today tomorrow or
even a month from now I can make that
decision when the time comes and when I
feel best needed to make that decision
however I'm already starting to film you
know videos for how whatever way I
decide to do this I'm already feeling
well I I started but I haven't filmed
anything since Saturday hey on crafting
stuff because I took a couple days off
because of just you know having all this
stuff going on medically but um so I
don't know we'll see and I'll just keep
you guys updated on what's going on
because again you guys are you guys are
the most important and you guys deserve
to know just as much as I do on every
step of this channel because this is
just not my channel this is your guys's
channel too and I respect and I value
all of your guys's input and that's why
I definitely wanted to come to you guys
because I value what all of your guys's
feelings and put input is because you
guys have made this channel be what it
is so I'll definitely keep you guys
updated on what's gonna go on for right
now I'm just really gonna focus on
getting me back grounded physically
medically get stuff going figure out
what's going on all together and you
know and then we'll go from there
so anyways today I don't we bought the
kids some robots and my dear child
Esther I decided to break hers on
accident so I think we're gonna take it
to Walmart doctor she says and take that
one back and get her a new one and then
I don't think there's really anything
else we're gonna do
I also was reading up quite a few
comments about not giving up carbs 100%
but just do low-carb and I agree with
you guys and that's what I'm gonna go
ahead and do is just do low-carb and
I've been pretty much already doing that
the last couple of days especially what
day was it Sunday I didn't eat really
anything is I just was sick to my
stomach over everything for two yes
yesterday's stuff so this morning I had
eggs and one sausage dog cut up and
cooked together with a little bit of
cheese and that was what I had for
breakfast and it was fulfilling and I'm
just gonna be pumping pumping pumping
the water but anyways so yeah I just
wanted to get on here and update you
guys on everything going on so far and
let you guys know that you guys have all
been in my thoughts and I appreciate all
of you guys checking in on me messaging
me being there for me mentally
emotionally
I appreciate it it means the world to me
that I have such amazing support from
all of you guys and for all of my new
subscribers I see all of your guys's
messages that your new subbies and
welcome welcome welcome I normally try
to get back in touch with each and every
one of you guys commenting wise but
because I've been going through a lot
medically I just haven't been able to
catch up on all of my comments but I
definitely heart them
so that you guys know that I am reading
them I do see it I acknowledge them and
I just want to say welcome to my channel
and to our channel I am so grateful to
have each and every one of you guys
along with all of my normal subbies that
you have been here since day one and
have grown with us and with me and
continuing to go with me
I just want to thank you guys you guys
are awesome and hopefully now that I've
gotten this part of the situation behind
me now we can start focusing on really
getting back into the you know the
workout routine and that stuff because I
think I'll be feeling a lot better you
know so we'll go step day by day that's
what I'm doing right now is just taking
it day by day and that's why right now I
haven't committed a hundred percent to
you know my daily vlogs again just
because right now I'm still at that
vulnerable stage of just trying to get
my feet back on the ground that really
bad depression episode was really bad it
really knocked me deep and I'm just
building myself out of it so anyways I
hope you guys are having a blessed
wonderful Tuesday and that this video
finds you well I will check in with you
guys soon and keep you guys updated love
you all and I'll talk to you soon bye
bye